The Story Behind Amil Ecki: A Journey of Words and Meaning

Today’s thoughts aren’t your typical spiritual post. Instead, they are more of a lighthearted, esoteric experiment. I’ve never really believed in horoscopes or magical name meanings, but sometimes life throws something unexpected your way—and just for the fun of it, I decided to play along.

Today, I want to tell you the story behind my pseudonym—Amil Ecki—and share an interesting observation that popped up by accident when I compared it to the title Dalai Lama. There’s no grand intention or arrogance here. Please treat this with a wink, just like I do. Along the way, I’ll share a bit of this blog’s history.

Why Amil Ecki?

Before I go further, I want to explain why I write under a pseudonym. This blog is a very personal space for me. I share my own stories here, and some are difficult: my crisis, my wife leaving, and single parenting three kids.

I chose anonymity because I want to protect the privacy of those closest to me. My kids don’t need to know every detail of the breakup—their mom is still an important part of their lives. I also don’t want my ex-wife to be publicly judged or condemned.

There’s another very human reason: I suspect she has serious narcissistic personality traits. I don’t mean the typical character flaws that come out in tough times, but a deeper disorder that—from what I’ve read—affects a small number of people. I’ve thought about this a lot, analyzed her past, and watched her behavior for months. The problem isn’t just a lack of empathy toward me—she doesn’t show it to our children or the cats I now take care of either. She sees the kids maybe for 30 minutes (usually just to grab something from the house) once every few days, even though she lives just 50 meters away and could drop by anytime. I tried talking to her about it, but she reacts with aggression (which apparently happens often with these disorders). I tried urging her to get therapy or a diagnosis, but no luck. She chose this path. I worry about her, but I have no right to judge her.

But let’s get back to the main topic.

The pseudonym “Amil Ecki” started as a variation of my real name. It’s short, easy to remember, and I think it sounds interesting. At first, it was purely a practical choice. Over time, however, I started finding deeper meaning in it.

What is hidden in a name?

Even before I officially started the blog and registered the domain, I got curious and checked what my pseudonym might mean. It turned out that “Amil” in Arabic means “worker,” “one who acts,” and even “hope.”

Action has always been the most important thing for me. My spirituality isn’t about rituals or symbols; it’s about discovering your own values and putting them into practice in everyday life.

I act by taking care of my kids—even though I could have chosen an easier path, like their mom did.
I act by running this blog—because I want to inspire, support people in crisis, and give hope.

“Ecki” doesn’t have a specific dictionary meaning. It’s my personal touch. It sounds like a common surname ending in my country, and it actually is the ending of my real last name.

I came up with the pseudonym by accident, but I identify with it completely. It has significant symbolic meaning for me. It is my artistic signature under which I try to bring hope to others through action, not just words.

For me, “Amil Ecki” is a symbol of “the one who acts”—because my understanding of spirituality is based on activity, living out values, and offering hope, rather than focusing on empty gestures.

Discovery in the title: Da Laa Amil

One day, after writing two articles about the Dalai Lama, I noticed a piece of my own pseudonym in his title: “Amil.” I thought: What happens if I take those letters out?

I was left with D, L, and three As. I started arranging them into different combinations to see if they had hidden meanings—partly for fun, partly out of curiosity to see if chance was handing me a symbol.

I prepared some short thoughts on what the different variations mean:

Dalaa (دَلَع) — Arabic: Means “delicacy,” “tenderness,” “grace,” or “pampering.” It’s used in the context of love, care, or a protective attitude toward another person. For me, it’s a reminder to care for sensitivity and subtlety in daily choices.
Daala (دَعَا) — Arabic: Comes from a verb meaning “to call,” “to invite,” or “to pray.” In a spiritual context, it’s an invitation to something higher, a reflection on one’s path, or a search for meaning.
Adala (عَدَالَة) — Arabic: Means “justice,” “honesty,” “balance.” In the Arab world, it’s a moral ideal—being fair to oneself and others. For me, it’s extra motivation to seek balance and act ethically.
Aldaa — Mongolian: In Mongolian, this means “mistake” or “error.” This triggered a reflection for me—is coincidence telling me I should be careful playing with words? Or is it an invitation to think deeper and learn from my own mistakes?
Daaal — No specific source: This is just playing with letters; I didn’t find a special meaning in dictionaries. Maybe this is the space for my own interpretation and creativity.
Laada / Ladaa — Slavic and other roots: “Lada” is the Slavic goddess of love, beauty, and harmony. The word signifies consent, love, fertility, and femininity. In many Slavic languages, it’s also a female name. I associate it with gentleness and balance.

These simple letter combinations have rich cultural and symbolic backgrounds. Maybe they didn’t appear on my path by accident? Maybe this wordplay is an excuse to pause and ask questions about the meaning of action, hope, justice, or sensitivity—and to rethink what I want to pass on.

Mistake or Reflection? Is the universe trying to tell me something?

This word game led me to the Mongolian word “Aldaa”—after all, the title Dalai Lama comes from the Mongolian language—which means “mistake” or “error.”

I started wondering: Is this accidental discovery a wink from the universe? A signal that maybe I went a bit too far playing with the Dalai Lama’s title? Maybe it’s a gentle warning: “don’t take this too seriously”?

Or quite the opposite—maybe it is an invitation to deeper reflection? Maybe “Aldaa” is there to remind me to stop and look at my own stumbles and errors? To think about what “Amil” means to me—acting and bringing hope even to those who are lost? Or maybe it’s a sign that I should refer to the Dalai Lama’s teachings more often on the blog and give them more attention?

This play on meanings made me realize that inspiration can be found even in verbal mistakes. Maybe this whole process is just a joke from the universe, where “Aldaa Amil” is someone who makes mistakes but keeps acting and giving hope, inspiring others to think.

If not for this play on words and associations, this post probably wouldn’t exist. Let it be a signpost for you, but also a small warning—when searching for your own spirituality, use different sources, but make decisions independently and consciously. Never follow anyone blindly. Even a word game can be a tool to manipulate people in crisis or those searching for spiritual meaning.

I could easily try to claim I had a revelation here, or that my pseudonym has some supernatural destiny, backing it up with the authority of the Dalai Lama to build fake credibility. But I’m just an ordinary guy who went through a crisis, is looking for spirituality, and reads a lot—about psychology, neurobiology, and combining life experience with science. I also read about quantum physics, which I treat more philosophically in a spiritual context because it offers an interesting view of the world and our place in it. I like to dig deep and share those searches here on the blog.

To better understand how I view spirituality, why I warn against manipulation, and how I see my role, check out these posts too:

I have a feeling the Dalai Lama himself—known for his distance and sense of humor—would appreciate this little game. After all, spirituality, while a serious topic, doesn’t have to be devoid of lightness and a smile. Our whole journey through life and words is about finding meaning without losing the joy of discovering new paths.

If you’re curious about my approach to word games, esotericism, name meanings, or horoscopes, take a look here:

Of course—don’t get me wrong. I simply practice spirituality through everyday life, not through esotericism and symbols. If you have a different approach and believe in those things—I respect that. That is your path.

Best regards,

Daala, Adala, Aldaa, Amil – your reflective, just and honest, yet mistake-prone, acting, and hope-giving companion on this spiritual journey.

P.S. Stay mindful and aware as you walk your path with intention.

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I see my thoughts as the essence, much like the soul, and AI helps me give them form. It supports me with research, translation, and organizing ideas, but every perspective is my own. Curious how I use AI? Read more here.