Who I Am and Who This Blog Is For
My name is Amil Ecki. I am an ordinary man from Eastern Europe, in my forties, and I lead an active lifestyle—not a sage or a guru, as the photo might suggest. In fact, the image is symbolic, chosen to represent the themes of this blog rather than my actual appearance. I mention this to emphasize that spirituality is for everyone. It doesn’t matter where we come from, what we have been through, or how old we are. The search for meaning and depth in life is not reserved for the “enlightened” or a chosen few. Spirituality is something we can practice daily, without grand gestures or pronouncements.
The space I create may not be perfect, but it comes from my heart, is the voice of my soul that I am continuously discovering, and is an invitation to feel part of a shared journey—from chaos and nerves to inner peace, from pain to understanding and acceptance. This blog is not a guide or a collection of ready-made recipes for happiness, because I believe that a recipe for happiness does not exist. It is a travel journal—an invitation to discover spirituality together and search for a meaning that can be found in the ordinary moments of our everyday lives.
My Story: Crisis and Questions
Now, having walked part of my path, I can see clearly for the first time that for years, my life was about searching for happiness in all the wrong places. I struggled with a deep depression and couldn’t find meaning in life. It wasn’t a critical state where I considered ending it, but rather a profound lack of anything that could bring me joy. The strange part was that I kept trying to do the same things that had given me pleasure in the distant past, but they no longer worked. Just when it felt like I was starting to get back on track, my family life suddenly fell apart. For many months, my wife led a double life—living with me and our children while betraying me and seeing someone else. Ultimately, she decided to move out, leaving me with full custody of our three kids.
In hindsight, I see that while I believed I was doing everything for my family, I was mostly focused on my duties and providing a sense of security. Somewhere in all of that, my wife’s feelings got lost. I don’t place all the blame on her; she was also suffering from depression. We all carry our fears and wounds, and we don’t always know how to name them or communicate them to another person. I don’t blame myself entirely either, because my intentions were good, even if my methods were flawed. The fault lies somewhere in the middle; there was a lack of communication and understanding on both sides.
Spirituality is teaching me to see the bigger picture—not just my own pain, but also what the other person might be experiencing, even my wife, despite the “wrongs” she did to me. I use the word “wrongs” in quotes intentionally. I don’t condone her actions, but I don’t condemn them either, because her behavior stemmed from something. It may be incomprehensible to me or to you, but as I’ve learned to manage my ego, it has become much easier to accept and, in a way, understand her choices. “In a way,” because while she could have turned away from me, her actions also show that she turned away from our children, selfishly choosing herself and her own pleasures.
Previously, this situation left me with so many questions: Was it my fault? Could I have done something differently? Where did all the frustration and coldness between us come from? My emotions—anger, resentment, a sense of injustice—were overwhelming. I tried to suppress them, to ignore them, but the more I resisted, the harder it became to live a normal life. It was at this breaking point that I began to search for something that could help me regain my balance.
If you’d like to learn more about the details of the crisis that shaped my journey and the challenges I faced, I’ve shared my personal story in depth here: From Crisis to Growth: My Personal Story. It provides the full context behind my path to spirituality and personal growth.
Spirituality and Practice: Mind, Body, and Mindfulness
The turning point for me was reading “Physics of the Soul” by Amit Goswami. I had always been intrigued by the mysteries of quantum physics, but this book took my curiosity in a new direction. Goswami, as a quantum physicist, explores the idea that consciousness and the soul are not just metaphysical concepts—they have a foundation in science. His explanations opened my mind to the possibility that spirituality and science could coexist, and that our inner life has a profound impact on how we experience reality. This sparked my search for a deeper, more personal understanding of spirituality—not as a religion, which I turned away from long ago, nor as a Church, which I became disillusioned with long ago, but as a quest for inner spirituality, a journey to know myself on a deeper level—I would describe it as striving to understand my soul.
Inspired by this perspective—the potential to get to know my soul—I began to practice mindfulness. I also started with a short, few-minute daily meditation, simple breathing exercises, and physical activity to release tension from my body. But from my perspective, mindfulness helped me the most. It still does; I have even grown to like this state, which I can achieve wherever and whenever I want.
But let’s get to the point. What did it give me? I am learning to observe my emotions, not to fight them, but to accept and understand them. I stopped asking, “Why me?” and started asking, “What can I learn from this?” Every experience, no matter how difficult, became an opportunity for self-reflection and growth.
Transformation: Understanding Myself and Others
Over time, I discovered that transcending my own ego brings immense freedom and strength. Above all, spirituality has taught me greater compassion—both for myself and for others. I realized that I have no control over another person’s actions, but I can be mindful of my own feelings and the real needs of my loved ones. This journey helped me break out of the vicious cycle of anger and victimhood.
Before, I would have felt like a fool – after all, she had been cheating on me for so long, I should punish her, get back at her somehow. But looking deep inside myself and putting my wounded ego aside gave me peace without the need for revenge. What’s more, I don’t feel bad about not lecturing or criticizing my wife (of course, setting boundaries and addressing issues is important, but with good intentions); after all, she cheated on me and left me with the kids. My perspective has changed.
First, I focus on myself—on my duties. Meaning, my job is to take care of the children. I don’t make excuses that she does practically nothing, so I don’t have to either. It doesn’t matter that we should share responsibilities; it’s my duty in this situation to provide them with what they should have: security, opportunities for development, etc.
Second, I don’t moralize, judge, or criticize her for her actions, as that would only cause her to rebel further—not against me, since I have nothing left to lose here, but against the children. It would be easy for me to place all the blame on her, share everything with the children, and turn them against her. With evidence of her wrongdoing, I could take as much as possible from her in court during the divorce. However, despite what she has done and how she continues to behave, I still worry about her and care deeply about the mental well-being of the children, who shouldn’t have to suffer because their parents can’t get along. Most importantly, I feel good about this approach—it makes me feel happy.
As you can see, spirituality is a deeply personal journey, and trusting yourself is the key. I trust myself. I explore this idea further in “Be Your Own Guru”, where I share thoughts on how to navigate your path without blindly following others.
My changes were not caused by the ideas from “Physics of the Soul” by Amit Goswami, but they inspired me to explore and deeply influenced my perspective, prompting me to start taking an interest in my “soul.” In this book, Goswami uses quantum physics to explore profound questions about life, death, reincarnation, and immortality, arguing that our consciousness transcends the material body. He suggests that the soul is real and continuous, that our experiences in this life carry meaning beyond the physical, and that science and spirituality are not mutually exclusive. I don’t have to agree with everything he writes or believe in everything—that’s not the point. What matters is that this understanding inspired me to view every challenge as a potential catalyst for growth and to see spirituality as an essential, living part of our everyday human journey.
An Invitation to a Shared Journey
This blog is the result of a transformation and a desire to share the realization that even the greatest life crisis can become the beginning of profound change. Maybe “greatest” is an overstatement—after all, people face far worse tragedies. But for me, it was enormous. At a certain point, it wasn’t even just about me anymore—it was about her “abandoning” the kids and my constant worry about their future.
Inspired by the idea of the “physics of the soul,” I intend to write about mindfulness, transcending the limits of the ego, and reconnecting with our true nature. But I also want to find balance in my exploration—between faith and science, between imagination and reason. That’s why on this blog, I try to present different perspectives I’ve come across—spiritual, scientific, and my own.
If you feel like your life needs deeper meaning, you’re going through challenges, you care about your personal or spiritual development (to me, they’re one and the same), or you’re simply curious about the world of spirituality, I invite you to join this journey. Let’s discover together how to find peace in chaos and meaning even in the most difficult experiences.
I believe that each of us has a unique spiritual path, but we can support and inspire one another along the way. If you’d like to dive deeper into this idea, check out “8 Billion Souls, 8 Billion Paths – Why Spirituality Is Unique for Everyone”, where I share more of my perspective on the search for spirituality.
What about you? What are your experiences with spirituality, mindfulness, or your own transformation? I would love to read your story and learn from your journey. Please share your thoughts in the comments below.
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AI Disclosure
I see my thoughts as the essence, much like the soul, and AI helps me give them form. It supports me with research, translation, and organizing ideas, but every perspective is my own. Curious how I use AI? Read more here.
